Too little too LATE..

It's just a little too late, a little too wrong.
And I can't wait..
But you know all the right things to say.
But we know it's just a little too late...

Too late.
That's the word. The word I couldn't even dare to admit and accept.
Why does it have to be just now? 
If only I knew the truth back then, the truth that was hidden behind me.
And then one faithful night changed my life forever..
It changed my standpoint with a man.
The man I considered my super best friend.
I never thought our lives would ever transect and then goes into a crisscross situation.

I Love Him.
That's the problem. It is not right. It's insane to be exact.
How could we share such feeling? 
He seem to occupy every space in my heart right now.
He came the time when I thought I have no right to feel something
that has been so hard to grasp over the years..

3 years.
Lonely, 3 long and agonizing years. 
My life was plain and simple.
I have come to accept the fact that no one was destined for me.
That I will forever be alone.

One Step Closer..

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer

One step closer

Really, the title of this post isn't really the title of the song i posted above.. Just wanna give emphasis on the 'One Step Closer' part. Hello! It's good to be back! Expect some random thoughts to pour out in the coming days! Happy New Year!:)