My life's been so lonely over the past months. After deciding to avoid my bestfriend whom I fell inlove with, I was stucked im my own solitary world. It felt like I was alive but not really living, working my ass off to pay my bills and to provide my family's needs, struggling to make it through the day. It's like living in a puppetry, driving your day to get you going.
The feeling of being unloved and finding true LOVE came back, when it seems too hard to grasp. I don't know if it's just me, or when you are so used to being alone, and when someone finally came to show a little bit of concern, you tend to question the persons real intention and feelings, always.. And worse, you ask yourself questions like, 'Am I really likeable enough?' You let yourself believe that you don't deserve their attention, long before you were born. So why now?
And there came one. A simple, yet not a bad looking one. So sweet and innocent, yet so full of ambitions and motivations. He's been showing some efforts and concern and I really, really don't know how to feel about him. How am I going to react on this? I am torn between giving this a chance and give in to my desire to be finally happy, and afraid that I might gonna loss it again, living me desperate and broken and hurt and angry on the world..
No comments:
Post a Comment